HAPPY BIRTHDAY

SOOO...

Monday Monday

Eagles won the 1st play off game yesterday.. We are all very proud..

Today is Monday and I hate it nothing to do today I should clean or something like that but what's the point really ugg

Tomorrow I have to meet with my ex.. I hate that. We're going to the SS office to have my name changed ... then to get me a new ID then lunch I guess My stomach hurts thinking about having to actually hold conversation with him after everything

Wed is my birthday and I was supposed to go get my tattoo for Curtis but now I don't think I'll have enough money because Saturday I'm going to Baltimore for my birthday and want to have money for that even though I was told that I shouldn't worry about money I don't like people paying for everything

Chris Ryan and I are going and HOPEFULLY Jess or Julia because they BOTH bailed on me on New Years so this is pretty much the deciding factor in my decision on if I should just forget everyone back up north and focus on my friends here or if I should still make the effort in trying to remain friends with everyone back up there ... Chris not included

The only thing I like about the situation with my ex is knowing that at any point in time I can just up and say.. I wanna leave and go live in South Carolina... with ease. I stay for Chris... I have a deep attachment to him but am often annoyed at/with him because no matter how much of a bitch I am he always says sorry... Ugg I hate how he lets me treat him and I hate how I do.. It's only somtimes I never use him or take him for granted I appericate him more then anyone or anything sometimes I just hate him for how nice he is and I'm mean.. sick isn't is sometimes I hate the way my brain works