Rickest man in the world

Just walked out side and noticed the sky... isn't blue
I really hope you know that I am hurting too.
Just thinking about all the rainy days i have spent with you
remember how you told me the sky is prettiest when its not blue
and how pretty you thought i was too oh oh oooohh ohh ooowoooh

those days are gone and you moved on to new lines
and new lies and new pretty girls your sell your story too
the cost
there heart
and all you want is to leave your mark
well your heart
is so dark

guess that why you think
the sky is the prettiest when it's not blue
i remember how i thought you loved me too...

what fools we are
to think any one can be trusted with our hearts
and that was just the start.

whooo ohhh oh ohhh

wwhoooo oh oh ohhhoh a whoo oh

a whoooo oh oh

You're heart was sooooo ohh dark

and there cost was there hearts

ohhh wooo oh

the richest man in the world you must be
I bet that's how you feel

Internet

I just want to start out by saying How disgusting It is that the most unbelievably heartless people I know are blood .

Anyway I'm living in Harrisburg now... Not any more excited to live here then I was to be living in Lancaster. I actually would love to live in Lancaster now.. It's funny when I 1st moved there i did nothing except sit in my room and be upset about how much I missed living up here. Then I met a bunch of people who turned out to be the best friends a girl could ask for. I was living with my cousin Jamie Family that actually cares about me... and I love the freakin twins... I always wanted little sisters... now I have my beautiful little twin cousins!!!

Ugh I think I'm going to stay here for as long as it take to move back down to Lancaster by myself.

So I finally went to the doctor for my shoulder They took X rays... wonder what those will end up showing.. I have to go through 12 weeks of physical therapy for it now 2 times a week for 12 weeks and she has me on 600mg Ibuprofen... like that is gonna help. She said she thinks its a muscle issue I figure after playing violin since the 4Th grade I probably do have so muscle problems in my shoulder.

Right now we are remodeling the house I'm living in.... I've never seen so much wood panel in my life it's disturbing.

I've gotta go get a shower and get ready for PT

Douch Bags somewhat golden like the afternoons we used to spend before you got too cool...

I dont consider myself a shallow person.. obviously Im not.. I dont pick my friends by looks or by what they have. Just who they are.


I think it's really sad how people change over years of knowing them. I think it's funny how some of these people have there mind set that they have grown up when in fact they have become more immature.


A lot of you hate Jason that know him and I've always stuck up for him and been his friend for 5 years..

Today I was supposed to hang out with my dear friend Jason. I came home from where I was away to hang out with him.
Then he texts me and says "Hey I cant hand 2day my friend emily and i r chillin @ 12 sorry."


Im not jealious either. He could have said a guy and I would still be just as pissed.. Last night he made a HUGE deal about us hanging out and shit now this.


I dont know who Emily is I couldnt care. I do know that I havent ever heard of her b4 which make the next part a little hurtful he cont. by saying"After doing a lot of thinking last night I dont have time for people who come and go""..and this other girl is a friend in front of everybody ... have a good one i suppose'


I guess that's what did it I've been bonnie and cylde with jason for 5 years best friends we laughed we cried everything together all the time. Now out of the blue on a day we were supposed to hang out I get this..


so I say good bye he says good bye then like 20mins later i get another texts that say "Hey just so u know im serious about this. This entire year raped me of so much that loosing you is like a cakewalk."


Jason is probally one of the only people I know who thinks so highly of himself but is doing so little with well anything.


It just makes me sick that all these years I'm stuck up for him when people talked shit and I've delt with all of his shit for him to pull stupid shit like this


He is fucking almost 23 lives at home only has a high school deploma is laid off On probation and still smokes weed he fails every drug test and acts like it doesnt matter. He spent last new years alone in his bed room with an 8 ball of coke.. I know he could do good he is an amazing song writer guitar player drummer and artist but his main concern is drinking nad smoking weed which is where all his money goes The he wants to bash his older brother who went through college and is a probation officer for york county because his brother doesnt go out to the bar and doesnt hang out with chicks and when he does they aren't hot. Calls his brother a loser and a washed up basketball star. He's doing somthing with his life. He isnt sitting around playing guitar for his cat smoking weed hoping maybe someone will walk down the street and hear and sign him to some big record lable. Im not gonna lie I'm not doing anything huge right now either but at the same time Im young Ive got a little time to spare and I'm concerned about my furture. I just wish I wouldnt have waisted all the time anf effort trying to get a low life to beleave in themself and clean up.


I guess all I have left to say is Jason I hope this Emily give stays cause I'd hate for you to loose a friend of 5 years for some one who is gonna come and go...

Etters

So Ive got my mom's house all to my self tues through sat ... its weird being here since i used to live here and then wasnt even allowed here for thanksgiving or christmas anyway Chris is staying here with me because I hate being by myself I couldnt stand it for a whole week Id go crazy ... friday Im having people over hopefully everything goes well and people dont fucking steal anything or fuck anything up I'll probally kill someomne

D Bags

I'm so sick of fucking people who completely make something up and tell it to someone else just to start fucking drama... I was at a party on Friday and was talking to this guy about Bikes.. then went about enjoying the company of my friends that following Sunday I get a text from one of my friends that lives 45 miles away from this party I was at who knows this guy via the stunt community and she asks if I met any of her friends at a party on Saturday and I told her I didn't go to a party on Saturday I was at a party on Friday in Lancaster at a friend of mines and she said this fucking d bag told her that I was talking shit on her girlfriend saying she is ugly and her baby is ugly and all this other shit... When all I talked to this guy about was bikes.... That makes me so angry ...

Stuffs

Well I'm a broncos fan now since my fav football player Brian Dawkins went to them which is extremely disappointing. I was hoping he would stay with the eagles or retire as one so My jersey that I finally just got half way though this past season would be worth something lol So this year I'm gonna get a new jersey.

Okay off the stupid topic of football Ive been working to death and trying to get off probation. It's so stupid that I'm even on it considering I got Possession when I didn't even have anything ... the people I lived with did and out house got raided anyway it was supposed to be 7 months of probation I got on in august and its march I passed my stupid piss test obviously and I'm in the stupid drug counseling BS they are making me do now I just have to pay the state 135 dollars which I don't have and I'm done... My friend in SC is wiring me money to pay that shit so I can get off and go visit if I'm still on that shit during summer I'm gonna kill someone I HAVE to be able to go camping and to the beach and all of that good shit... Oh and to Richmond to visit Mr. Bobby : )

Distance ripped us farther and farther and farther away

I'll see you soon if you're coming back this way again

Im slowly pulling myself away from chris and everyone back up north ... I've made my life here and I love it .. I just dont feel like making the effort to go up there and stay over night one or two nights and miss anything down here When Im back home up north I get no cell phone service so I miss everything and I hate that I hate being cut off from everyone it's not fair to me and it's really annoying everything i try and talk to chris about it he just thinks about himself and doesnt listen to how I feel Jess is moving in with me ... Im anxious to see how that works out ...It could be good or bad sucks because she blew up here car so I gues that's a rush for me to get mine uggg life latley