Home?

I'm at my mom's

It's sooo weird being here. I lived with her my whole life.. I lived in this house for 4 years. I've only been living in Lancaster since September yet I already miss living here so much even though when I lived here I hated it so bad.. It still feels like home the last time I was here was only a week or two b4 Christmas and I cried because I missed it so bad. I hated living here because of her boyfriend who I always used to fight with because of his stupid rules like the stupid ass gate across the drive way that prevented my friends from driving back to get me ... back a 1/4 mile long drive way and the fact NO1 was ever ever ever allowed to come over. I left because he kicked me out.. He isn't allowed to own a gun because of trouble he got in over drugs that was my fault... on a very very very small scale.. I was told I just had to be gone for hunting season because he had to hunt with a bow and arrow and didn't want any noise back here.. Turns out I wasn't allowed to come back

I wasn't even allowed here for thanksgiving or Christmas and am only here now because he is at work... What I wouldn't give to live here again How I miss it soooo much ugg... New friends in Lancaster are all that keep me content with the fact I don't live here.. I'm almost happier there because everyone here knew me and my group of friends was starting to dwindle I sorta like my new ... Life I guess

I just miss feeling like I'm actually home.